Happy Birthday Owen!!! I love you so much!
Today, I should be filled with joy and excitement since it is Owen’s birthday. I should be giving him a kiss and wishing him happy birthday. I should be laughing and talking about our plans for a fun party with friends and family. I should be seeing all his joy and anticipation about the unopened presents. I should be getting lots of hugs, smiles, and thank yous today. Should be.
Instead of weeks planning a party, I spend weeks getting more and more stressed. We wonder who his friends would be. What would he be like today? How would our lives be different? How would we interact with each other? Instead of going to a party site, we will go to the cemetery. Instead of getting hugs, smiles, and kisses, we look at pictures and watch videos just to see him and hear his voice. I want to curl in a ball and do nothing.
Instead, we talk about Owen all year round with our kids so that they can know him. We visit the cemetery regularly to maintain flowers and other decorations.
Today, we will spend Owen’s birthday trying to make it fun for our other children. We do special things that Owen would have liked, or we think he would have liked. We always have cheeseburgers, french fries, and chocolate milk. We go to fun places like AirMaxx, Vertical Endeavors, or Dave and Busters. We try to make today a celebration of Owen’s life even though it is very hard to be happy and to smile.
I love you so much Owen. I rejoice that you are with Jesus. I am excited for the day that I will get to see you again.